Showing posts with label matters of the heart. Show all posts
Showing posts with label matters of the heart. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

pure coincidence?

it's pretty scary, really... whenever i'm feeling blue or lonely or down or pensive etc, suddenly i'll get an sms from the x. basically, he leaves me alone most times. we don't keep in touch after all the storms died down. but once in a while, he'll just drop me a "how are you" msg and it's always when i'm feeling rather down in the dumps. or when i had a dream of him the previous night! scary, right?

anyway, life's been pretty mundane lately. yeah, i admit i feel pretty lonely sometimes. those deep kind of loneliness, u know? like even when u're surrounded by people, friends and families, you'll still feel lonely. very deep, right? haha...

but overall, i'm still ok lar. bz with work and stuff... so all is good!

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

change of url...

need to change the url, coz the x knows the old one. that was why i passworded this blog previously.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

over-controlling partners...

seems like this is the latest 'in' thing among partners? just yesterday, a friend told me of her daughter crying abt her over-controlling bf... and then this morning, the topic for mix FM's 'he says she says' is also on over-controlling partners! and all these right after my own show down with the over-possessive bf! pure coincidence or is this the prevailing trend among partners nowadays? hmm... points to ponder, huh?

neeways, met up with the x no. 2 yesterday to discuss on some stuff... he's looking more composed and calm. we even had a nice chat on general stuff. maybe it's really possible to remain as friends after all these...

Monday, May 05, 2008

show down...

u said u'll wait till after his exam before breaking the news to him, but u acted too rash... yeah, he forced u to blurt it all out, but actually u could have swallowed it down and bear it for another month. u are not a good actress after all...

u wanted a peaceful and calm break up, but u still speak all those unkind words to him. it was unnecessary... but u just had to open ur mouth n speak ur mind. y hurt him further by telling him all those things? u needn't be so truthful...

u cried hard when he requested for one last hug from u. yes, it's difficult. and it may be the last hug u'll get from a guy who really and truly loved u with all his might. u even contemplated taking it all back n keeping his love forever. but u urself know that is a very selfish act. and would u be able to live that way? to be loved and not love? i dun think so...

u know u must live with the consequences. of course u'll miss his love and care and all the things he's willing to do and sacrifice for u. but since u've decided to take this course, u'll just have to live with it and make the best of it.

these past few days has been an emotionally charged one, but i know u'll live. u've been thru worse... and u still have ur family and friends whom u can count on. so for now, just take some time and let things settle down for a bit. go back to your prime point of faith and dun forget to include a little prayer for him too. u've hurt him badly, it's the least u can for him now...

Friday, January 04, 2008

wedding bells...

supposed to post this earlier, but just got the pics from the bro... anyway, the bro finally got married last dec! :)

so now the pressure's on ME! :(

Saturday, December 22, 2007

weekend getaway

went for a weekend getaway with the bf to cameron highlands last weekend... well, one thing i learnt from this trip is:
NEVER GO ANYWHERE ON A SCHOOL HOLIDAY WITHOUT PREBOOKING YOUR ACCOMMODATION!

looking for a place to stay was hell! we arrived quite late, abt 6pm and all the places in brinchang were fully booked, be it hotels, inn, guesthouses, motels etc... in the end, we found a yucky room for an exorbitant price of RM150!

as it was a saturday, a 'pasar malam' (night market) day in cameron, we went to have a look. well, most of the stalls there were catered for tourists... if i were a local there, i dun think i'd buy anything there! but since i'm the tourist, i went ahead and parted with my money! hehe... bought some fresh vege, for goodness knows why, since i dun cook at all! but they were really cheap, prices ranging from 4 - 12 packets for RM10, depending on the size of the packs.


nothing like a pot of steamboat to warm one up in the cold! but the shop that we went to (aiya, forgot the name of the shop!) only served us a few slivers of cuttlefish, 2 miserable fish balls, 2 pitiful meat balls, a bit of 'tao-kee' (bean curd skin) and lots of vege, for the cut-throat price of RM36! that's RM18 per head! >:(



after an unsatisfactory steamboat dinner, we headed over to this shop "Strawberry Moments" that we spotted earlier for some strawberry desserts. their menu were mouth-watering and i had a hard time deciding what i wanted. in the end, we shared this "Melt-in-Mouth", which consisted of 3 scoops of ice-creams (strawberry, raspberry and chocolate), strawberries coated in white chocolate, marshmallows and fresh strawberries. other than that, i ordered a cup of strawberry tea while the bf had some hot chocolate. hmm... at least the dessert did not disappoint!



early the next morning (believe me, for someone who usually goes to bed at 5 or 6 in the morning, waking up at 7am IS VERY EARLY!), the bf drove me further up the mountain to watch the view from Equatorial Hotel... it was lovely!


from the front of equatorial hotel, there's this little trail of steps overgrown with bushes, trees and plants leading down to the plantation below... it was really beautiful and fun, but the overprotective bf would not allow me to venture beyond the steps to the mud trail further below :(

after a bit of exploring and picture taking, went back to town for breakfast... we've deduced that food is quite expensive there! then we checked out and went strawberries hunting! ok, not really hunting... plucking!

ripe strawberries waiting to be plucked...


1/2 kg for RM20... and these proprietors are really clever, i tell u. u not only buy their strawberries, u need to do the work for them too!



on the way down, stopped by the roadside to take this spectacular view of the tea plantation... then since it's still quite early, we decided to go up another road to the Boh Tea plantation. boy, the road is really narrow and winding, just enough for one car to pass at a time!



yikes! saw this gigantic millipede crawling along the path at the plantation... scary!
we decided not to track up to the very top of the plantation, coz it's so tiring! so we went to visit the Boh factory and see how they process the tea...



after that, we rested for a bit in their tea shop... i had the Boh green tea (yucks!) and the bf had the Boh camomile (nice!). and so, our weekend getaway ended with 2 mugs of Boh tea! and i'm gonna be sick of strawberries for a very long time!

Thursday, August 30, 2007

family affairs...

contrary to popular belief (ok, maybe just my naive and distorted view of things), a relationship between 2 people is not well, between just 2 people. now i realized, whatever decision, plans and undertakings we make/take will need to involve not 2 people, but 2 families! *sigh*


maybe i'm so used to being independent, coupled with the fact the my parents don't really impose any major restrictions on me, going along the tunes of "as long as ur life is not threatened, we trust that u're big enough to know what u're doing and what's important is u're happy", that suddenly having to extend my consideration for other ppl's family's views, opinions, wish, etc is just so dem frustrating! and the spoiled and obstinate brat in me wonder if it's really so important to give in to one's father's every whim and fancy, when all these while, it's MY every whim and fancy that's being met by my dad! *urgh*

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

new fad...

in one of my previous posts, i've promised to blog abt my new fad... well, ok, it's not so new now, but nvm lar. here it is!




yep! PS2! hehehe... actually it's not so much my fad, but the bf. i only play the dummy games like super mario and monoply. hehehe... but he put it at my place so that he can shoot, race and bang police cars to his hearts content without nagging parents and controller-hogging siblings. like a kid right? *sigh*



not only that, he's obsess in collecting games! now it's filled 2 folders! *sigh*

Thursday, June 07, 2007

new hobby...

the bf's lar, not mine! found these in his handphone:

Monday, May 28, 2007

another year...

nothing extravagant... simple yet memorable.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

weekend at the zoo

ok, i know i know, most of u will go like, "what?!? the zoo?!?" but i like going to the zoo n looking at the animals wat! *pout*


here's me stretching myself to feed bananas to the elephant.
*sigh* the things i do for them animals! :Þ






i think my fav part of the whole zoo is the children's world, coz get to pat the animals! hehe...

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

random updates...

1) this was supposed to be my last week in this company, n next week i would have officially been jobless... then last week, my manager asked if i'd like to extend my contract for another 1.5 month! ok, it's just 1.5 month, but at least it'll give me slightly more time for my job-hunt. but shucks, i still need to follow through with some work, work which i thot i can escape doing! :Þ

2) N and i had set our hearts to sending in the application for Amazing Race Asia Season II! but after all the excited planning and talk, we reluctantly came to the conclusion that it's too rushed. other than the application forms, we'd need to submit some photos of us together and a 3 minute video showing y we're the perfect team for the race. the thing is, we only found out 1 week ago, so i dun think we can come up with a good video that'll stand out from all the thousands of applicants from all over asia in that short span of time. we'd need to come up with the video concept, a good script, the actual shooting and all the NGs... we din even know how to do video editing! *sigh* so maybe Amazing Race Asia III next year?

3) never believed so much love can exist in a person b4... let alone a guy!

4) gosh, getting so the gemuk!!! thinking of taking up yoga again... or maybe set an exercise regiment with the bf? jogging? swimming? hmm... but the thot of it is so lemah-fying!

5) surveying on backpack for siem reap trip in july... dunno y, those that i have my eyes on are so expensive! at least RM400 n above... gosh, more expensive than the trip itself!

6) been having a lot of financial headaches lately, things i dun usually stress my little head abt... *sigh* really gotta start saving...

7) sushi challenge day 2! sushi king's RM2/plate bonanza is back and as of today (2nd day of their 4 day promo), i've been for 3 meals oredi! hehe... see how many meals i can go for this time round b4 i get sick of sushi for a while...

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

ipoh wedding/makan trip

ah, look at the view! ipoh is practically surrounded by these mountains! makes waking up early in the morning a pleasure... here, the ji-mui are going for an ipoh breakfast before going over to the bride's place to wait for the groom...

the wedding was a sweet and simple affair... we ji-mui had a great time 'receiving' the groom and his heng-dai, which involved daipers, ribbons, the groom's baton performance, love letter, shoe-hiding and at one point, door-barging on the part of the impatient heng-dai.



and while in ipoh, of course we had to take the opportunity to witness with our own palates all the hoo-ha about ipoh food. gosh, it was absolutely crazy!

white coffee and chee cheong fun for breakfast; iced white coffee, chee cheong fun, egg tarts and yam-kok at the original nam heong kopitiam for 'immediately-after-lunch' snacks; white coffee, iced-lemon tea, iced-lemon (to help digestion), roti dipped in curry, some sort of puff etc at one of those 'Old Town' coffee houses (that seem to be mushrooming up everywhere) for cooling down after our 'immediately-after-lunch' snacks; wedding dinner which is very different from any wedding dinner food we've tasted; taugeh chicken rice at onn kee immediately after the wedding dinner; white coffee (yes, i'm well aware we're over-doing it with the white coffee), dim sum and fried kueh teow the morning after; baked salted chicken to go; back to nam heong to ta-pao some egg tarts and yam-kok back to kl (unfortunately the egg tarts weren't ready), and while ta-pao-ing, had more iced white coffee; duck drumstick mee at bidor on the way back to kl.

*phew*

Thursday, March 22, 2007

earliest birthday present ever!

first birthday present for this year... and the birthday is more than 2 months away! *grin*

dun u think the red one is super cool? i lurv it!


he is so SO so spoiling me! *grin*

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

cny '07

2 glaring differences from past years' cny:
1) hk uncle's whole family (including his 2 new daughters-in-law) came to spend cny here in m'sia... cool, 3 additional ang-pao's!
2) the aunties have less 2 persons to nag abt getting partners
---> the bro and me! hehe... thus giving a lot of pressure on the remaining single cousins!


back in kl, lou-sang gathering with a few gco friends at my place.

urgh... i kept asking them to keep their hands away so that
i can get a good shot of the masterpiece , but no one listened!

some entertainment after makan...


chap goh mei...

made this to a gathering at my ex-clg's... when i showed N this pic,
she went 'wow, so nice!' but when i showed her biow's koi jelly,
she said, 'dear, ur friend's fish is much much nicer than urs ler!'
aiyo, must she be so frank? sakit hati betul! ~:(

note on konnyaku koi: as opposed to biow's koi agar-agar, i used konnyaku powder instead. for the koi part, i used laichee flavoured konnyaku powder and the water part is plain konnyaku. not sure if u can see, but i put in some basil seeds in water to make it look like 'fish eggs'. haha... so weird.

Monday, February 26, 2007

introducing...

everyone, meet the bf... *blush*















appetite back to normal!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

little teddy bear

there's a little teddy bear
i discovered today
sitting quietly in the corner
the corner that was thought empty

little teddy bear
when did you creep in?
i've never seen you before
never felt your presence before

a place once cold and barren
now blooming
bathed in sunshine
and spring rains

my little teddy bear
you came so quietly
but you made the whole place aglow
with warm joy and laughter

little teddy bear
you crept in unannounced and uninvited
but now i hope you'd stay
just stay for a while longer

Friday, February 09, 2007

*flutter*flutter*

dang... i really need to come to some sort of decision soon. all these flutter-fluttering and flip-flopping is making my stomach go haywire! dun seem to have any appetite for food, even tho very hungry sometimes. worse, those that i managed to swallow will be purged out soon after!

hmm... maybe this will help me slim down a bit. hehe...

Saturday, February 03, 2007

crossroads...


arriving here once again, at a different place at a different time. but it's the same crossroad. all the signs pointing at something or other. but standing there, one can feel so lost. which way shall i take this time? do i go by my gut feelings? do i go by other ppl's advice of good intentions?

finding myself at the crossroad once again, that same sinking feeling in the pits of my stomach. yet, there is also a slight sense of exhilaration for the unknown, for all the possibilities out there. the adventurous self in me awakens.

standing at the crossroad, dare i go on?

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

a great year ahead!

yikes... was hoping to do a post on new year's day, but now the date to this post will show 2nd jan. i know i can always tinker with the date, but nvm lar...

ok, have not been blogging for sometime. so let's talk abt my christmas first. or rather, the few days before christmas.

the friday before christmas was to be my last working day of the year, coz i was to go on 'leave-clearing' leave from christmas to new year. but since i would be out of office for more than one week, i was not able to finish up all my job-in-hand on time. ok lar, i admit i'm inefficient lar... hehe... anyway, i stayed back in the office until 9.45pm! dang, i was the only person on my floor and it was so scary! i had to keep calling the building management to make sure they keep the lights on! actually i did not finish my work at 9.45pm, but i decided to fled when 2 security guards came up to jot down my ic number and told me all the lights will be switched off at 10pm!

staying back at work meant i had to miss wk's hen's night. i was supposed to go over to wk's house for her hen's night, then stay overnight to be her 'ji-mui' for her wedding the next morning. in the end, wk only had 5 'ji-mui' instead of 6... shucks! i was so looking forward to playing kk out!

neeways, the few of us gco players played the wedding march for kk's and wk's wedding ceremony in bk. this is the first time the song's been played live for any wedding in bk, so it's a proud moment for all of us! but i think our wedding march piece was too long, or maybe the bride and groom walked too fast. coz after only the 3rd line (abt 12 bars), they've reached the front of the hall and just stood there waiting for us to finish, so that they can sit down! kk said it's one of the most torturing moment, coz for once in his life, he can only stand in front of us and watch and can't pick up a baton to conduct us! hahaa... later, after the ceremony proper, we were supposed to present a short piece for the bride and groom. but at the mc's announcement, kk said jokingly that he wanna play also. i immediately offered my cello to him, asking him to join us. everyone else joined in to get him to play. well, he needed little persuading anyway! haha... in the end, wp gave up her cello to kk and ll offered her violin to wk. and the bride and groom played palladio with us! i think this is also the first time the bride and groom were in the performance for their own wedding ceremony! haha... needless to say, cameras were clicking away like crazy!

now this is what i call passion for music. even getting married also can't let go of ur instruments!
music life

newliweds playing palladio with us (pls excuse the crappy sound. video was taken with a phone)


lh very excitedly competed with the gals for the bridal bouquet!


sat night was the wedding dinner... for me, i think this will be the most memorable wedding dinner yet! it's memorable not because it's at any posh hotel or restaurant, nor the food mouth-wateringly delicious, nor the whole dinner set-up super amazingly grand. it's memorable because most of the gco members were there (we had 3 tables) and everyone was so sincerely happy for the new couple. gosh, our 'yam-seng' were enough to bring down the house! and at one point of the dinner, we spontaneously decided to have all the gco members up on the stage to sing a song for the new couple. but seeing all of us going up on stage and hearing the mc announce 'ALL gco members', the newliweds also got up on the stage with us! i've never felt so touched singing 'peng-you' ('friends' by emil chow) before in my life. everyone was singing (and shouting) away, so proud to be a part of gco, the spirit of comradeship literally oozing from our every pore! i was struggling hard to keep my tears from falling!

sunday, christmas eve. at first, a few of my gco friends were thinking of planning something. but somehow, everyone was bz and also like no mood for any big plans... so in the end, we decided to just get together at some ulu western makan place (to avoid the kl jam and crowd) and that's it. then at the last minute, i found out that the housemates will not be in on christmas eve, so we got everyone to meet at my place instead. we did a pot-luck kinda thing, played some cards and mahjong, exchanged gifts, drank some wine, talked a bit, laughed a lot... all in all, it was a fun and simple christmas eve gathering, albeit some tiny problems with parking at my apartment.

then on christmas day, i decided that i simply HAD to get into office to settle some stuff. don't really like to leave my stuff for my clgs to settle... so went back to the office for abt 3 hours before rushing back again to pack my bag to go home for my long leave. so that's how i spent my christmas day... at work, and a quiet wine and kacang session with the family at night.

nothing much happened at home. lots of tv (even crap ones) and sleep... so zooooommm! fast forward.....

came back to kl on sat, 30th dec. came back early even tho' work only starts on the 3rd, coz have rehearsal for our new year gongyo performance. rehearsal went ok, followed by extra practice after dinner. then when we were packing up at the end of our practice, N suddenly asked if i wanna go out for drinks the next night. we didn't really plan to have any celebration initially... everything was just impromptu. so i asked our usual gang and bang! we have a new year's eve plan! haha...

we decided to try out a new cafe in an almost ulu place, again, to avoid the kl jam and crowd. but as it turned out, the place was quite happening when we got there. apparently, a whole big family has taken up 1/2 the place, and we only managed to get a regular round table (for 9 of us!). first, we just sat around, talked, played uno (provided by the cafe), had some drinks and finger snacks... but as it neared midnight, things started to heat up. most of the patrons (NOT including us) were already running around spraying each other with those party spray thingy.

things got really crazy after the countdown, so we decided to move to a quieter place where we can sit and eat real food and have a decent conversation ---> the mamak shop at the end of the block from the cafe. it's a good thing we made our escape fast, coz as we were walking towards the mamak, police cars began to arrive at the cafe. well, those kinda parties were not our cup of tea anyway.

at the mamak, we did some serious planning for gco. and i was so proud of N who volunteered to lead the spring cleaning of the gco room... finally, i can see she's getting more involved and making herself a part of gco!

new year's day... we only performed for the afternoon session this year, so i got to sleep in a bit. overall, i can say the performance was a victorious one. we're going to set a tradition of playing strauss's pieces for new year's day. so this year, we started with 'thunder and lightning', strauss's polka piece. i was so happy to see wy keeping her promise to join the performance. and i was also very happy and proud to see N hurrying me to faster-faster put down my cello before she went on ahead of me to kneel down to do the new year gongyo! on her own free will! without me telling her to! *beam*

too bad din take any pics of our christmas eve and new year's eve escapades... dunno y, but lately, i find myself really lazy to handle the camera. unless it's other ppl's camera lar. then i dun mind posing! haha...

so that's my christmas and new year story. no crazy party or anything special. just some quiet time (ok, maybe not exactly quiet) spent simply with a bunch of great friends... and i dunno, but i have this feeling that this year would be a great year! filled with challenges, no doubt, but great all the same!

here's a very humungous new year wish to everyone!