cny ard the corner...
just another 2 weeks to cny... but somehow, i dun feel the new year mood yet. y ar? maybe coz i'm still here, still need to work hard. i think i'd feel it when i get home...
anyway, heard from mico-san today that a fren's dad passed away. gosh! juz last 2 weeks, it was biow's dad, then now BB's dad... life is really so unpredictable...
well, i've also experienced the death of a loved one near cny, when i was in f4. it was my beloved granny, the person who loved me the most. her death was really sudden. one day she was sitting there, talking to us n planning for cny, and the next day, when i was coming down from my room to go to school, my dad told me granny had passed away! how i cried! no, i literally howled!
anyway, as granny's death was so near cny, according to chinese culture, we can't celebrate cny as we're still in mourning. but ironically, we celebrated it hardest that year. of course, we didn't do much house-visiting to non-relatives' homes, lest some of them pantang... but we had some great family gatherings that year. granny's death brought us even closer together. of course, when our laughters grew too boisterous from our card games or when our voices grew too loud from our conversations, we can always hear remarks like, "if granny were here, she's be laughing until tears come to her eyes!" i think granny would want it that way too, for us to strengthen our family ties n celebrate life in those cny gatherings.
n every cny after that, even tho' it's been so long, memories of granny would be even more vivid in my mind than other times. granny isn't one to join in on our conversations or card games (being a devout buddhist, one can't possibly imagine her sitting down at the gambling table with her prayer beads which, as far as i can recall, never left her hands!), but always liked to sit quietly at the side, watching our games or listening to our jokes n conversations... the image of her, laughing so hard but soundlessly that her eyes would be reduced to just 2 thin lines, always warmed me up. those are the times when i'd miss her most...
well, this year, heard from mom that we'd be going over to JB on the first day of cny, coming back the next day. this is something different, as every year, the gathering's always at my house. as my cousin has just bought a large house in JB recently, my mom thought we should go there to visit my uncle for a change.
anyway, have not bought any cny clothes yet... but then again, i'm not one who's really that particular abt the tradition of wearing new clothes for cny. i remember there was one year where i bought just one blouse for cny, and on the first day of cny too! hahaha...
