sometimes i really hate myself

why am i so weak? after everything he's said and done to me, i thought i can now seal my heart off against him. but why am i still being affected by him? one word from him and it can raise my spirits or it can cast me into the deepest despair. *sigh... why?

i nvr thought i'd be this weak. it's scary what someone can do to you. now i understand why there are suicides and other stupid things ppl do for love (or the lost of it). a sane and normal person can suddenly turn into this psycho who stalks his/her X, nvr coming to terms with the break-up. i could never comprehend it before. hmm... but dun worry, i'm not THAT psycho (yet!) ;)