i'm a fainting queen...

N was telling another friend abt all my fainting episodes, and i realized i'm actually a fainting queen!

one of my most 'pai-seh' fainting incident happened when i was in my 2nd year in uni. it was a saturday afternoon and i'd just woken up. one of my housemates asked if i wanna go ta-pao lunch from the nearby kopitiam with her, but i was feeling so lazy and not particularly hungry. so i declined. but at abt 2pm, i felt really hungry. so i decided to go buy lunch from the kopitiam after all...

only the chee-cheong-fun stall was still selling, so i told the uncle that i wanna ta-pao. i was so hungry by then that i felt that i'm gonna faint. so while waiting for my food, i bend down halfway with my hands on my knees to try to get some blood to my head.

and the next thing i knew, i was sitting on a chair with a lot of activities around me, the vegetarian stall aunty rubbing my hands, the kopitiam operator's daughter trying to feed me some warm water with a spoon, the chee-cheong-fun's helper telling me that she's put my RM10 (that i was holding in my hand) into my pocket and voices asking if i'm ok.

gosh, it was so humiliating! since then, everytime i go to that kopitiam to ta-pao, i'd get an earful abt eating my meals on time and also a bigger portion of food! embarrassing!

and i find that the place i tend to faint most frequently is outside the toilet! this has happened at least 3 times! i would wake up and wonder why i'm lying on the floor outside the toilet door. ish... of all places!

hmm... wonder why i'm so prone to fainting... like so drama hor?

i want!

ks: u very tamak ler... everything also u want!
stargal: bwek! :Þ

things i wanna do:
1) re-learn japanese language
as said before here, been wanting to take it up again since leaving uni. took 2 semesters of it in my 2nd year but have forgotten most of what i've learnt.

2) take up korean language
seems like an interesting language...

3) take up photography
would love to capture moments and immortalise it. i believe a good photographer should be able to capture the character and feelings of his/her subjects, be it animate or inanimate. n i wanna do that. too bad the bro refuses/lazy/bz to teach me... :(

4) read more
have not had much time for reading lately... taking so long to go thru a book! *sigh...

5) travel more
see more of the world. for now, would love to do some backpacking...

6) learn sign-language
dunno y... seems interesting...

7) sleep more
been SO deprived of sleep! mostly i get less than 5 hrs of sleep daily (weekdays), so normally by thurs, i'd have turned into a zombie

8) get diving license
fell in love with the underwater world since my out-of-this-world guided diving experience in lang tengah in 2004. but still need to overcome my fear of big dark holes in the seabed and being gobbled up by unidentified underwater giant creatures

no more kankucho-ing...

been feeling pretty down in the dumps lately... everything seems so meaningless. dunno what this life is for also... it got so overwhelming that it finally overflowed when i was chatting with biow yesterday. funnily, things got better after a good (well, i wouldn't technically say it's 'good', coz can't really bawl my lungs out, but u get the idea) cry in the toilet.

neeways, biow pointed out that we're like 2 kankucho birds. complain complain complain, then resolve to do something abt it. but when the time comes for us to really 'do something', we'll forget abt our resolves, escaping by giving a million n one excuses. the next day, we'll feel miserable again and then start to complain again... it's a vicious cycle!

the story of the kankucho birds was told in the gosho letter to niike. click on the links to find out more... i borrowed the term 'kankucho-ing' from biow, who found it in brenda's blog after asking google for 'kankucho'.

after this realization, we told ourselves we can't keep going on like this. we must take action! we can't short change ourselves, especially when it involves our own happiness! so we'll start by accumulating good fortunes (again), coz all these while, we've been using up our good fortunes saved from last time but have not been depositing new ones... so of course we're running low lar...

and so yesterday, i've embarked on a new journey. will update my victory reports here from time to time!